Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...... I'm in totally no mood !! I'm having bad lucks this few days... My money spent like flow of water.. The worst is is spending on unreasonable things..

I'm gonna crazyyyy.. Why all unfortunate things happen all together ? I even sick and no appetite.. I really behtahan.. I need to say out .. my heart is paining yet I ask myself to be brave and even ask myself to hold my tears .. I'm really feeling of helpless now !! Who can I tell ? I'm not feeling well all over body .. plus stress for final exam.. Gonna burst out soon !!

* PLEASE BE BRAVE SHIRLYNN !!

* TRY TO CONTROL, EVERYTHING WILL BE ALL RIGHT !

* IGNORE THOSE ANNOYING YOU !!

FBF Night

I wanted to post this long long time ago. Just I keep on delay till now. I'm lazy to blog now~~ arghhh..

We attending FBF night on 18 March with bunch of friends :

( Sin Rui, Zoe, Xi Mei and Shirlynn)

First time of me to have such heavy make up~~ hehe

But, we do enjoy much~~

Such a great night~~ <3

We had plan for this long long time ago but due to timing problems, we keep on canceled.

Finally, we spent our most precious time to go this function due to this last semester..

My Look on that day~~ Hee

2 handsome~~ Kingsley and Vincent

With Mr Julian

With Ms Ng Shwu Sing

BA Gang~~

Ladies~~

(Annie, Shi Wen, Pei Pei, Pei Shan, Ai Ling, Penny, Shirlynn, Xi Mei, Sin Rui and Zoe)

期望

每个人都想自己的期望能够达成，

但世事往往不能竟如人意，

有时候期望越大，失望也越大

反而没有期望就不会有不必要的痛苦

也许期望会带来痛苦

但正因为有期望，

就算有多痛苦我们都可以熬过去

所以印使多么害怕失望，多么怕痛，也不能失去期望

剧作家莎士比亚曾经写过 :

期望是唯一能够医治苦難的柴物，当你悲伤的时候 期望就像一首能够安付伤痛的音乐

能够达成期望当然是很开心的事，

但有时候我们的期望会背板了其他人的愿望

难免要做出取舍.

放弃哪一个期望都要付出代价，

但是除了你自己 没有人可以告诉你应该如何选着.

有些期望可能不管你的事，

你会不懂为何有些人愿意牺牲生命

也要追求一些不会有结果的期望.

但若用心感受，你更会学会；

每个期望或轻或重都是值得尊重的.

可是无论期望带给你安慰，快乐，还是伤心

能够期望与被期望都是幸福的事

因为我们还生存着.

就算有多少个期望落空，我们都可以有新的期望

直到生命中的最后一刻

** I found this so meaningful**

A great night

Went to Sky Lounge at Ipoh with bunch of friend last Tuesday night to relax~~ It ended up become my most unforgettable moment.. First reach Sky Lounge, due to rain, we ended up to go another place. At first, I'm pretty well, drink one glass and then continuous drink and I dun know how much I have drank. I started to feel dizzy and I told Yi Hui. She hold me and I also dun know I continue to drink again. Finally I dun know when I fainted and ended up they carry me into the car and we went back. I feel my head is so damn heavy and I feeling so unwell. I even couldn't stand by myself.. and they send me back to their house. I started to vomit and I feel so so suffering. I just couldn't stand up and my head keep dizzy. I also dun know what I had said and the next day I feel a bit better and I went to class. But, I couldn't pay much attention during the lecture and I slept once I reach home. Yesterday sleep early and today I feel so much better though there itchiness on my body, hand and legs. When I think back, I feel so so embarrassing cause this is my first drunk~~ arghhhhhhhhhh.. dun dare go Mc D T_T

Anywhere, somehow it is good to feel drunk as I can relieve the sadness and stress inside my heart. I know I cry it out loud when I'm drunk.. I seldom do that in front of people and I never even drop my tears in front of my friends. I know I can't stand too much and finally I take this chance. Final is coming and this is my last sem. Am I able to achieve what I hope for?

I know there are abundant of constraint waiting for me and I know is hard for me to curb, and what I can do now is I will try my best to curb it. Promise my self not drink too much alcohol next time.. Anyways, thanks to Haur, Yi Hui and Lorraine of taking care of me..

Lastly, there's be nice moment for us too~~

Sky Lounge-3rd April 2012

3 Pretties

Yi Hui, Lorraine and Shirlynn

Two Handsome

Wee Chee and Haur

Great night with them

Yi Hui, Lorraine, Haur, Wee Chee and Shirlynn

Past Memory

I couldn't sleep last night , ended up thinking the past. I know I can't lie. My heart still there. I do admit I love you till now. I pondering what will be happened now if we are together in 5 years back.. I regret that I do not step forward. I do keep the feeling till now and I know you will never now. I make a wrong decision in 5 years back. Maybe I can say it is fate. Till now, I din even think of someone that I can accept, maybe there isn't anyone the same like you. I know it is bad if I made comparison. Confirmation couldn't be made in past time resulting of regretted in future time.

Anyway, Wish you all the best !! I will keep this feeling forever in my heart forever

Acc friends VIVA

I'm so bored.... of revising my lecture notes for the coming midterm.. 3 subject (Management Accounting, Industrial Relations and Financial Statement Analysis) in the next week. The continuous week will be busy as bee as Final Year Project is almost deadline and as well as other assignment.. Fainted..How to prepare 3 subject in this weekends. haiz.. and I'm not in the study mood at all. But, I'm still in the process of forcing myself to revise.. Okay let's forget about it. Ya, wanted to post up my accounting friends photo during their viva, Since this is the last semester, photo taken should not be missed out. Argghhhhhhhhh.. I'm still waiting for my turn........

They are so smart in formal wear~~

Haur and Shirlynn

Shirlynn and Lorraine

Publish Post

Best Friends Forever~~

Haur, Shirlynn, Lorraine and Yi Hui

Something feels right

Above this pictures : What you guys think? Sound so pathetic right?

I wonder is it there is such person? Ya..In reality, there are some person like this. I like sentence so much. I do hope I'm not the bored option..

Till now, when its coming to the end, I found that the outcomes is the what I couldn't expected and is not the one I wishes for. It because the process proved it but why, the ending could be like this? Maybe I can describe in other terms, the shares I invest long times ago, it brings profit to me, but suddenly, when I almost earn enough, the shares suddenly drops. In the end, I need to recalculate ant invest another shares. In this new shares, I earn more although the process is suffering.

I really gain happiness in this 'new shares'. Although I couldn't earn profit with the 'old shares' but I do still hope to gain profit together with this" two shares."

I do hope miracle could happen !!

GOD bless me !!!